Running

To quote my good friend Mr. McMillan, I need to "get my motor running". I am itching for a road trip.

I've been considering the past 5 months and how much I've gone through. It's been tough. But, I have had my favorite person on the planet to distract me. That helped. I would like to hit the road with him on Saturday, but, who knows. I think he's afraid I'll fall in love with him all over again. Truth be told, he might be right.

Anyway. I really need to break free and get away.

Mothering

It's Mother's Day. A holiday that is always a little bitter sweet for me. I love my mother and love to have a day to honor her. But, at the same time it reminds me that I am not a mother, and probably will not ever be. It makes me sad. I think I would have been a good mom.

Shining

The Sun is trying hard to break through the clouds. It feels metaphorical. Like the weather is reflecting my mood. It's a gift.

I feel good. I feel balanced. I feel like I can move on. I can have fun with someone else, like I did last night. It makes me a little sad to think about giving up on him. But, I can't ignore someone who whats to spend time with me, when Cute Cop clearly doesn't want that. The Cop still has my heart, and probably always will. But, the Attorney is a great guy and he makes me laugh. I guess I'm kinda taking a shining to him.