Letting

As in Let it Be. I'm letting right now. Letting things work themselves out. Letting myself feel and laugh and play. I'm letting go. I'm letting him have time and space. OK. I'm trying to let him have time and space. That one is still really hard.

I'm reading and writing and seeing movies and falling in love with my job and my family all over again. I'm letting myself believe in a future that I have postpone for a long time.

I'm letting myself believe that I deserve all of the things I want. I'm letting them come to me, on their own time. It's a hard lesson to learn that you can't force these things. At least, not if you want it to be real.

I'm letting myself enjoy being in like with someone. Enjoying the butterflies each time he calls, every time I see that evil sparkle in his eyes. Letting myself slow down and enjoy getting to know him. I'm grateful that he is letting me.