Adopting

365 days to go before I begin the adoption process. When I set this arbitrary deadline in 2004, it seemed a lifetime away. Now it's one year away. I'm not as freaked out as I thought I would be.

I'm grateful to have the time to plan and save and to get in shape. It all ties together. That's my lesson to myself today.

I spent a long time in the park last night trying to envision my life with a baby. I think I'll be a good mom. But, I feel some guilt about creating a single parent family. I feel like this little one is going to have been through so much already that he or she deserves everything, including a father. I mentioned this to a friend last night and he was quick to point out that one parent who loves you is far better than life in an orphanage or in the foster care system.

He's right, of course, as always.