Failing

It's been a bad day. I feel like I've failed my whole staff. The annual bonus that most of the staff relies on to finance their family's Christmas will not be given until January, if it is given at all. Why? Because we don't have enough money coming in. Whose fault is that? You guessed it. That honor would fall squarely on my shoulders. So, essentially, I have ruined Christmas for about 30 family.

God, I hate Christmas - almost as much as I hate to fail.